This post isn’t about beads or jewellery. No, this post is about my other addiction: food. Yes, I love food. For years my signature in emails was the quote: Chocolate is the answer, no matter what the question is.
In a sense this quote says a lot about my relationship with food. I not only eat because my body needs to refuel. It is a social thing as well. I like to eat out with friends, chatting and having fun while eating a delicious pizza or a steak with fries. So far so good. I see no problem in that you might think.
No, the problem starts when I am stressed or feeling sad, lonely or depressed. That little voice in my head tells me I need food to comfort myself. It says it will make me feel much better. No better still, it says I deserve to have that snack or that piece of chocolate.
Like a lunatic I start looking in the fridge, in the cupboards, zooming in on my target: unhealthy food. I am even able to take the car to go to the nearby cafeteria or bakery.
And I start eating. A lot. I don’t even taste what I am putting in my mouth, as long as it is eatable, unhealthy and a lot: chocolate, candy, hamburgers, French fries… Anything to lift my spirit. And for a moment I am blissfully happy.
The result: I am overweight. And to be honest, I am disgusted with myself. When I look in the mirror, I hate what I see. And I only have myself to blame. I am lucky, there is “only” 15 kg too much of me. But it needs to stop. I need to stop. Now. So from today I am going to work on the new improved me. The new healthy me. With Paleo and lots of exercise. I will post regularly about my progress and my frustrations. Just to force myself to stay on course, to change my life style.
And I could use some help from you guys. With your encouragements and tips I will get there!